I am personalising.
This is not always good. I might bang on about peregrine Moon in Scorpio, (Nick Drake syndrome) but it’s no joke! Not to live it. It’s a ‘no-middle ground’ placement, you either feel too much or too little, Scorpio always was the sign of extremes, but who wants their nurturing side to be crazy like that? My safest refuge in these wayward and overly intense moments has been Saturn. I can filter everything that Mercury writes via a quincunx to the Lord of the Rings (so I’ll never be satisfied with it) and take myself out of the equation. Normally that works fine, but recently it hasn’t been working.
I got into a fight with somebody about Pluto in Leo. I feel like a fool for getting upset about it. Pluto on a fixed sign is nothing if not a self-fulfilling prophecy, but even so, who argues about astrology? (Elsa?) I mean people argue about astrology all the time, but I don’t!
Then I realise that I am getting a Neptune square. That’s fine, but I am getting way too much of it. Now this obviously – as you non-civilians (Monica used that term, I’m hijacking) will know is useful in the activation of self, and less esoterically it allows us to connect with the divine (I said less esoterically, but this is Neptune right?) so all that is good but usually you get 3 passes of a Neptune square, so why do I have to get 6? And right at the same time as Sun conjuncts Neptune by Solar Arc (and Secondary Progression too obviously). That’s like having 3 Neptunes in your chart. Now during the first pass I wanted to go and sit on a mountain, and yesterday the second pass came into its 1 degree orb as Neptune retrogrades through 22 degrees of Aquarius. It’s good, because it trines Ur/Pl/Asc and sextiles Chiron, but it makes me want to write poetry, meditate, it makes me question everything, it makes it hard for me to work and most especially it makes me want to run.
This is what happened to me before. I got Neptune applying hard to its square and I went and bought some running shoes and after many years of indulging in minimal exercise I started out. I was none too huggable at the end of that first attempt. I kept at it until Neptune was really going “screeeeeee!” across my entire life and I could run 5 miles non-stop easy and I was loving it. Then Saturn hit Virgo and my knee went. I haven’t run in two months.
But the point here is that maybe I shouldn’t be running at all. Maybe I am only running to somehow exorcise (deliberate spelling but there’s something in that) myself. To get the energy out so it didn’t make me frazzle up. So it was exorcise and exercise!
So I have two questions:
1) Have you had a Neptune square or any other really hard transit, Arc, progression to the big wet one?
2) If you have what did it make you do? This is a cry for help, so take it seriously!
3) Should I keep things personal? I can’t decide. I will write another post a little later about Orcus. Maybe.
I realise that is 3 questions, but I plead the Neptune defence.